Soul growth for me happens when I rub up against the pieces within myself that are not in the light of God, and when I do run into those parts that are not conscious, it creates challenges and unease in my life. Until I bring my conscious awareness to those parts of me that are in the shadows, they run my life without my awareness. When I do the inner work to bring love and compassion to my inner growth, I get into the flow of God. But that flow only lasts until I rub up against another piece of unconscioius belief. This is how I grow. I grow from unconciousness to conciousness step-by-step as my soul unfolds me in this ebb and flow with God. If I didn't have challenges, I wouldn't grow to know and trust my own soul.
The soul growth piece that has been the deepest learning for me has been to trust the guidance of my soul over the thoughts of my mind. Almost nothing that my soul asks me to be makes any rational sense or any sense to the culture in which I live. There are so many rational ways that I am supposed to be, but my soul growth doesn't ask me for those rational things. It ask me to do what it against my egoic self. It asks me to hold love and compassion for people even when they they are struggling and imperfect. It asks me to extend a hand to those that need to know they are not alone. It ask me to let go of relationships that are not in alignment with me in order to create space for the right tribe to be in my life. It asks me to let go and trust when the rational thing to do is to fret and worry. It requires me to do/be/become the fullness of who I am, which does not necessarily mean being successful in the world's terms. Most of all, it asks me to know my own unconsciousness and to bring that unconciousness to the light; it is this understanding of the darkness within me that gives me compassion for everyone who is struggling.
I started this blog asking if I am crazy to follow my soul? The answer is yes if I define crazy as irrational. However, it is not actually craziness but the deepening of our true self and allowing that true self to emerge in the world. Erich Fromm said, "Man's main task is to give birth to himself." We are giving birth to the soul here and now in this world. It may not look like how we think it ought to look, and it many seem crazy to the people in our lives, but it is a necessary deepening to God. Being our true selves is the evolution of our species to become the fullest expression of the Divine in the form of man, and our evolution to the soul is not rational.
My questions for you this week are:
1. What does it mean to you to be your true self?
2. How do you know you are centered in your true self and when you are out of alignment with the soul?
3. What does being in the ebb and flow of Divine support look like for you?
4. What is your soul asking you to be/do/become right now, today? What is your current unfoldment?
5. How do you let feeling crazy following the soul stop you from deepening?
6. What can you do today to say yes to your inner deepening?