For a few years, I held on to my stubborn conviction that I was going to be a successful writer and that was how I was going to live in the world. I held that conviction so sternly that I turned down opportunities (which in hindsight would have been fun to do) in order to be a writer. My desire to create the one big dream of writing began to exclude other the other ways that my soul was calling me to express myself. I love to write because it connects me to my authenticity, so it is a true joy and passion for me. I am a writer...that is true....but I am also so many other things. My soul has been calling me for years to express those other aspects of myself, but my stubborn conviction to make writing define my life and livelihood has blocked my ability to create the full, rich life my soul was calling me to experience. For years I have heard nudging from my soul to go back to school and have ignored them because I was going to make writing work. Or worse yet, I thought that by doing other things, I was scattering my energy into ineffectiveness.
What I did not realize was that staying focused solely on one dream was drastically reducing the joy in my life. I had so much pressure on writing that it stopped being fun. I had so much pressure on myself for the second book that I stopped writing for months all together. I know that the fastest way to my soul connection is through doing things that bring me joy; yet, trying too hard to create the one big dream was excluding other ways that I could not only experience joy but also experience the fullness of my own divine expression. So I have learned my lesson, and I am now living multiple dreams simultaneously. I am not only studying at an interfaith seminary so that I can be an ordained minister, but I am also starting graduate school full-time. I am working on my public speaking as well. I am starting some visioning support groups later this fall as the beginning of my own interfaith spiritual center. Oh, and I write sometimes too simply because I love it.
Here are my questions for you this week:
1. What ways is your soul calling you to express? Make a list of all the longings both big and small.
2. Is there one or two things in your life that keep usurping your attention from creating all the dreams on your list.
3. Is there one big dream you have been putting all your energy into?
4. What does a full, rich life look like for you?
5. What ways are you expressing yourself joyfully?
6. How can you increase the frequency of your joyful expression so it is more consistently in your day?