Faith has always been a bit of a sticky subject for me. From much of my Catholic upbringing, it meant blind faith that must follow the rules without questioning. There was a time where I felt faith was fickle as if God had given out more of the grace of it to other people than God did with me. I knew that I wanted more unwavering faith, but I really wasn't sure what faith was to begin with and how exactly to make that faith solid. As my image of and relationship with God/Spirit/Divine/Source has evolved over the years, so has my understanding of faith.
My favorite quote on faith is by Dave Willis, and I think it serves as a good definition, "Faith isn't a feeling. It's a choice to trust God even when the road ahead seems uncertain." I see so many people in my practice that are struggling to find faith - to really trust themselves and their own inner guidance. Much of that lack of faith stems from a lack of trust in God/Spirit/Divine/Source. Honestly, the only way to build that faith in Spirit is to take leaps in the dark and test the waters of God's good for us. I so wish I could give you a magic formula for it. Faith is a choice to trust God, which means we must build it by testing. Every time we challenge ourselves to do the thing we want to do but are afraid of, we choose faith. Every time our world falls apart, and we pull ourselves back together in a new way; we choose faith. Each time we decide not to believe the fear and worry in our minds, we choose faith.
I have made many leaps of faith - usually without grace or elegance. I spend a lot of time worrying, making sure it's the right path, and even asking for other people's opinions before I leap awkwardly across the threshold of a new way of being. Unfortunately, once on the other side, I sometimes look back and criticize my leap wishing I could have more grace. Rarely have I jumped blindly; more often, I have stayed stuck in something so long that I have no choice but to move forward. The choice of faith for me happens always as I am moving forward. If I wait to find the faith first, I am usually stuck longer. Faith is built in the trying and testing. Faith is built in the choice to leap.
My questions for you this week:
1. Has there been a time where you have chosen faith?
2. What would it look like and feel like to move forward on something you are afraid of?
3. What is your worst fear that keeps you from your faith?
4. What would happen if you chose faith regardless of what your mind or the people around you tell you?
5. What does it look like to test and try your faith? When has God passed the test?