When I hear that inner guidance in my heart to live the life I would love, all sorts of internal and external blocks come up for me. Many times, these blocks have stopped me in my tracks for years. For example, there was a graduate program that I wanted to do for ten years. Every time I looked at the course descriptions, I became excited about what they were teaching. Then the next day, I would talk myself out of pursing that program because it was not very practical. If I could not see the end result of doing it, I would stop myself from taking the first steps. Every time I killed one of my dreams because of my own limitations, my life shrank. I was living a small life that was stifling because it was not reflective of me or my heart. Without love, passion, joy, self-expression, I was miserable.
So what I have learned the hard way is that I must commit myself to my dreams even if there are parts of my mind trying to convince me that I am crazy for pursuing them. Once I definitively commit myself, then I can walk through all the shadow pieces that were my blocks. I can look at each one of them and realize they are not actually true, but illusions of culture or from family roots. Until I commit myself, I will often quit and live in misery instead of living a life that I love.
I am now committed to making commitments about my dreams.....committing my time, resources, and money to my dreams. It started with committing myself both to seminary study to become an ordained interfaith minister, but also to that masters program in organizational leadership that I have wanted to do for ten years. I stopped asking myself if it is rational to be doing either program. I'm doing them and absolutely loving them!!! Are there parts of me that are nervous about the money or the long range plan, sure. But the more I commit myself to taking steps to my dreams, the quieter those voices are becoming.
So currently, I am nervous and slightly terrified to be committing myself to my new dream. For a long time, I knew that I wanted to create my own spiritual community. I even received intuitive hits about what to call it and where it should be located. Then, my mind would kick in and tell me things like, "what do I know to be running a spiritual center, I should wait until I graduate from interfaith because I don't know enough, or we can't afford to make that commitment right now." So I was tabling the dream because of this inner skeptic. Last month, I knew once again it was time to create my center. Instead of letting the inner skeptic talk me out of it, I went and rented a room in an office building here in Las Vegas to actually create it this time. I'm calling it Soul Sanctuary because it will be a place for people to reconnect with their own inner wisdom. My inner skeptic was outraged at first that I would have the guts to live my dreams, but the more committed I become to doing it, the quieter the skeptic is becoming. Classes/groups will begin in January, 2015 for Soul Sanctuary, and I love it!
So the hard, easy answer I have for you today is that the path to creating the life you love is committing yourself to living that dream regardless of the obstacles that appear to be in front of you. Take that very first step and commit to doing what you love today. My questions for you this week are:
1. What would you really love to do?
2. What makes your heart sing?
3. Are you doing what you love? If not, what stops you?
4. Do you actually believe those reasons that your mind is giving you or the messages that your family is giving you?
5. What would living a life you love look like, feel like? Who is in it? What are you doing?
6. Can you commit yourself in a meaningful way to one aspect of that life? Make it some kind of commitment that you cannot break if possible.