We tend to fight the cracking open to who we are because we know that once we are conscious of what our soul is calling us to be, our lives must come into alignment; we don't want to make those tough choices that effect our relationships, careers, finances, or families; in the beginning, we don't really want to change.
The funny thing about dancing with the soul, it that the soul always leads. We are not in charge of the dance, but are asked to yield and give way to the safe arms of the soul to guide us for each step. It doesn't matter to the soul that we have not danced the dance before. It doesn't matter to the soul that we don't know the steps. The soul doesn't care that we are unfamiliar with the music. It does not make any difference if we know the purpose of the dance, we are simply led to dance. When we first begin to dance with the soul, it is as awkward as our first middle school dance, and we trip over our own feet, want our dance partner to like us, and wonder why we put the spotlight on us to dance at all. Slowly, as we practice and find the courage to give way to the soul more often, we find the dancing becomes easier, and we begin to understand that the music we have been dancing to is our own beat - the rhythm that is unique to us. We cannot try to make our rhythm be like anyone else's beat. We must dance to the beat that is given to us by God.
This is the art of cracking open to the soul - dancing with our rhythm of our true self. For me the dance ebbs and flows. Some days I make an elegant partner to my soul, and I listen to the music, yield to the arms of my inner light, and flow across my life with light and ease. Other days, I cannot get into the rhythm, cannot let go, and stumble through my life. Stumbling is my call to live more authentically. It isn't fun to be awkward, self-conscious, unsure, upset, or learning, and this discomfort pushes me to listen to my soul's beat more closely. Anything else feels unsettled and incomplete. The most important lesson that I have learned in this dance, is that I will never master it. I am always learning new steps and am living a lifetime of creating this cracking open dance.
1. What is the rhythm of your soul?
2. What is the dance that you have been learning?
3. What does it feel like to give way to the arms of the soul?
4. What does it feel like when you are learning the new steps?
5. What steps is your soul teaching you now?