On the last day of classes, my dean had asked me if I was okay on a 10 minute break. I told her that I was a bit tired but deeply grateful for the wonderful group and community that I was experiencing that weekend. As those last words came out of my mouth, tears began to pour forth from me that I could not stop. Some of the tears were the pain of loneliness that comes from when I believe I was the only person having these intimations with God, and some of the rest of it was the sadness that comes when I could not find a place to share my deepest connections to myself. I have sought spiritual community for years, but had never found a true home until last weekend; yet, the majority of my tears were about feeling relief that I was finally home. So what made this place different from all the other spiritual places that I had been to was that they loved and embraced me as me. There was not doctrine I had to believe; there was no prayer methods that I had to make my own; there was no certain way that I had to do my spiritual life. I just came as me and that was enough. They loved me as me!
As I write this blog this week, I want to know if you have also experienced the same loneliness and the same feelings of being isolated. If so, please leave me a comment. I have been playing around with the idea of creating an online community on Facebook to love and support each other as we connect to our individual experience of God. No doctrines. No rules other than love and respect. Just the embracing of both our humanity and our spirituality. So please comment on this blog. Message me on Facebook. Let me know if you are interest in creating online spiritual community with me. I also know that it is time for me to start my interfaith ministry, so I will be starting groups and community gatherings later this month. I'm not sure I want to teach classes because what can I teach you that your own soul doesn't already know. So please check the calendar on karakeating.com for my community gatherings as well. I feel like it is time for spiritual community to be a place where we can explore the different ideas of the world's wisdom in order to dig a deep well of connection to God and to express that connection in our everyday lives in, through, and as our authentic selves.
My questions for you this week are:
1. Have you found a spiritual community that you find resonates with you? What is that like?
2. What would your ideal community look like?
3. Are there steps you can take to gather other people in a new type of community in your area? Maybe a study group or a prayer group? What resonates with you?
4. Would you be interested in online community? If so, message me somehow to let me know, and I will create one for us as a closed Facebook group.
5. I wish someone had said this to me 5 years ago. You are not alone on your spiritual quest. You are not crazy for your inner wisdom and guidance. You are not weird for not fitting in somewhere. Take a moment and just feel the knowing that you are exactly as you should be and that your spiritual community is forming in the world. Be patient....and just breathe into the knowing that you are not alone.