I opened Soul Sanctuary, an interfaith center in Las Vegas, in January. I knew when I opened it that I was the guardian of an idea from God. I knew that I was to protect and keep the mission of Soul Sanctuary over pretty much anything else. Soul Sanctuary is in existence to help people connect to the Divine in their own way, and it needed to be supported by teachers/people who could put their own egoic concerns aside to be a part of something bigger than themselves. It took me a few months to learn to discern who was coming from ego and who was coming from soul. Truthfully, it took me a few months to get my own ego out of the way. Soul Sanctuary wasn't MY spiritual center; it was God's center; I am only the vessel for it.
As I opened it, I also became really great friends with a kind man from my seminary class, Marc Hupert, who lived in New York at the time. From the time I really got to know Marc, I knew he had a role at Soul Sanctuary, but I didn't know what that was exactly. Initially, I thought that he would come out and do a couple of classes to share his ministry with Vegas. In mid-April, he came out to do a few classes. The moment he got here, my own soul told me that he had a far greater role to play at the center as a co-director with me. I didn't know exactly what that would look like or how it would play out with Spirit. I just knew that I needed to give up control of how Marc was ministering and allow him to be himself sharing his gifts. So allowing Marc to be himself was the easy part, but letting go of being the only person in charge of Soul Sanctuary wasn't so easy.
As this month with Marc unfolded, another beautiful man came into my life named Scott Schmidt. Scott is a Reiki master and has become a close friend. Scott knew that Soul Sanctuary was looking to be in a bigger office space and wanted to team up with me and Marc. We started looking for places together and things became difficult as we were determined to be separate businesses. Scott wanted to hold onto his baby of Blue Fire Reiki, and I was attached to keeping Soul Sanctuary all mine so that I could retain complete control. In the midst of this, Marc was struggling with trusting both Scott and I to really include him as a full partner. Each one of us was being asked by Spirit to let go of our attachments and learn to be of service to something bigger than ourselves.
As the challenges went forward, each one of us dropped our masks, showed our flaws, and learned to love each other deeply. As the process moved forward, each one of us grew closer to our own soul listening within for the inner guidance that would make things effortless. Marc decided to move to Vegas permanently and trust that he truly had a ministry to give here with partners that had his back. Scott knew that it was time to be a part of a different vision than Blue Fire Reiki, so instead of being separate businesses, he let go of his to be of service to Soul Sanctuary. As I watched these two beautiful, conscious men let their egos go to the calling of soul, I knew that I too had to grow by listening to the call of my own soul. I knew it was time to let go of full control of Soul Sanctuary to work in collaborative partnership with them. I knew that Soul Sanctuary was far bigger than just me and my gifts, but that Spirit had a plan that was working out in and through them.
It hasn't been easy dancing with my own soul guidance and my desire to stay in control. I have had moments where I have acted like a mama bear protective of Soul Sanctuary. I have struggled to trust that these two people can hold the consciousness of service to soul. I have struggled with my mind that tells me that I am crazy to create a partnership and that it can't be trusted. I've struggled to make sure that I am listening to Spirit and not my own fears. I have struggled asking God if this is really what is wanted. I have worried, cried, and been frustrated. After all that struggle, I know in my heart that Soul Sanctuary is far bigger than just me. I know that God has brought these two amazing men into my life to serve Soul Sanctuary. I know that this collaborative partnership dedicated to creating a safe place for the soul is modeling a new way of being in the world that I can't do alone. Living from soul guidance to outer soul expression isn't easy because we are forced to peel away layers of our control and learn to work through our fears, but when we do, the flow of God happens, things work out, and relationships deepen to new levels.
My questions for you this week:
1. How does the need to control show up in your life?
2. What ways are you staying in control?
3. What ways is Spirit trying to help you let go>
4. What does a collaborative partnership with others look like to you?
5. What are you being asked to create with others?
6. What does it look like or feel like to be on your soul's path following it's guidance?