It has been a full years since I have written a blog post in my unintended sabbatical from writing. I knew I didn't want to write what I had been writing anymore (I even deleted five years of posts to create a fresh place for something new to emerge). I had no idea that I would take an entire year away from one of my deepest passions. My original blog and first book focused on connecting to and getting guidance from the soul. Years of writing about the soul taught me something really important - connecting to inner guidance without a connection to God is like only having a spec of sand from a vast ocean. Last fall, when I stopped writing the soul blog, I felt connected to guidance but not to God.
In the years that I used to do energy healing for a living, I was often asked by people how to open their psychic gifts and approached by those who were injured by (most likely) well-intended spiritual leaders. My advice that I gave folks new to the mystical path was that they had to learn to discern what other people were listening to. The guidance given by a dead person was different in quality and caliber than guidance given by the angels. Not to mention that the ego can often sound like guidance when we haven't done our own inner healing. I used to advise people to shoot as high as you can for the guidance. Now, I understand that nothing could be higher than God.
Everything in energy answers to the One Supreme Being (even the darkness), but folks are so afraid to talk to God that they will talk to just about anything else. When you make animal spirits, Ascended Masters, or even angels the only focus, you lose something....you lose the Almighty Source of it all. Doreen Virtue, who is famous for her work with angels, has recently altered her entire career saying that we do not need any intermediaries between us and God. I am grateful for the angels and still talk to them this day, but I always go to God. I pour everything out to the Almighty source - my fears, hurts, joys, worries, bad jokes, or confusion and allow God to transform them for me in grace.
I think part of the reason people have lost God is that "God" seems to be a bad word these days because it brings up memories of hurt for many people. I heard a minister once say that the army of the church is the only army in the world that shoots its own wounded. As disheartened as I am by such events, I find that in getting rid of religion, folks have also thrown out God. I recently assisted teaching a course, and I was talking to another co-instructor analyzing how to make the course better. I mentioned that I prayed to God before coming asking that God use me and work through me. The co-instructor immediately recoiled at the idea of God and prayer, and she immediately became defensive. So often, I no longer introduce myself as a minister because I find people immediately put up walls as if I want to convert them or make them feel guilty about their lives. The hurt from poor spiritual leadership is real, but God did not create that hurt.
So the new blog is called Do Greater Things Blog because from John 14:12, Jesus tells us, "Very truly I tell you, whoever believes in me will do the works I have been doing, and they will do even greater things than these, because I am going to the Father." What does it mean to do greater things? How do we believe in Jesus and in God again?
I believe we do greater things by listening to the Source, God. I think our lives circle around and around in blocked doors and ego paths until we finally find that intimate relationship with a loving God. Once we have a God that we trust, we can surrender everything in our lives to that infinite Source. I have to say that a state of surrender is really quiet. I am no longer trying to make things happen. I am no longer trying to listen to a vision or move to some future idea. Instead of constantly doing, I am learning to be....to be authentic...to be present... to be whole...to be peace...to be love...to be wisdom....to be laughter. By surrender, I listen to what God wills me to do in the present moment rather than what I think I ought to do. I don't run around trying to fix everything anymore because I know God really has the whole world exactly as it needs to be. My job is simply to do my part each day, which I do when I am present and listening within.
I'm going to end this first post with a prayer from St. Ignatius of Loyola that has given me tremendous peace this last year. Allow these words to sink into the very core of your being and cocoon you in God's loving grace.
Take, Lord, and receive all my liberty,
my memory, my understanding,
and my entire will,
All I have and call my own.
You have given all to me.
To you, Lord, I return it.
Everything is yours; do with it what you will.
Give me only your love and your grace,
that is enough for me.